"ツグミの歌"

DESCRIPTION: maybe a song for tsugumi (one of my characters)? idk, i personally want my life to have a happy end so ig i could give it to tsugumi by not only embracing her own weaknesses proudly as her strengths, but also doing that in other people. realising that, she's finally able to be happy. the fact that it's imperfect is what makes Ray perfect (another character). also she has rain symbolism, the whole show/comic/game/whatever will. the rain represents somebody's struggles, and there's this whole thing of "even when tsugumi was a kid, she wasn't afraid of the rain, she went out to play while everyone else went indoors" which kinda shows how she's a person who takes a lot of blows and works really hard. it's only when she has no goal that she becomes depressed, like maybe she ends up at a certain point of the show/comic/game

[ intro ]
time's ticking and i don't know what to do
once the clock hits midnight, everything will collapse
so, before then...

[ verse ]
i could be a CEO or
the president of a country
i could become wealthy
or be a villain who destroys the world

because no matter what i do,
it'll always be stolen away
no matter how hard i work,
i'll get sick of it eventually

[ chorus ]
whatever i choose, it doesn't matter
because i'm never going back to today
everything i missed out on's been taken away
and i have no desire to change

[ postchorus ]
i have no particular desire for any single thing
because all i want is a person who doesn't exist

[ verse ]
i could be a murderer
or a top-grade student
but upstanding citizens
don't always get what i want

because no matter what i do,
it'll always be stolen away
no matter how hard i work,
i'll get sick of it eventually

[ prechorus ]
what is the point of working when you have no goal?
that is the #1 plight of any high-school girl
and yet, it seems like everybody else walks on by
paying the future absolutely no mind..

hey, don't you care?

[ chorus ]
whatever i choose, it doesn't matter
because i'm never going back to today
everything i missed out on's been taken away
and i have no known way to change

i have no particular desire for any single thing
because all i want is a person who doesn't exist

ah, what a dream

- piano solo -

i've always had something in my heart i can't explain
an unknown desire for bloodlust
no, i don't think that's true at all, it's more like
i'm just upset i don't know how to love

all these other people, who treat it nonchalantly;
what's the secret potion you're drunk on?
i don't know, i don't know, and so;
i'll keep on living this life

but before i even knew it
there was a hand reaching out to me
like somebody in a dream,
i wasn't sure, but they seemed so inhumanly perfect

[ chorus ]
whatever i choose, it doesn't matter
and i'm never going back to today
so that's why i've got to make this one matter
and forget my worries of it being fake

whatever i choose, i can't go back on it
so you may as well do your best
i'll dance in this rain called "my desires"
yes, it's awful, but it's all i have

i'll discard any notion of an "umbrella"
and as i say that, the forecast changes

and i step into my own sunlight