"Sunshine Days"

DESCRIPTION: blame shishamo for reminding me of those summer days. i never have fit in with anyone, not even once. they're reminding me of my 2021 era of longing and failing to connect in a band. ahh so nostalgic, so painful hhh the summer. every time i try to join a group and fail to fit in... it reminds me of those days once again too. i am a person much defined by my past. it's the thing most important to my behaviour, the thing i write about the most, but ironically, i was on team present in the splatfest. funny how that works. i am held back by these few memories i hold dear... the only days of sunshine in a world filled with monochrome. it was filled with memories of You. longing of You. and yet, i'm still too scared to do anything about it. because i'm kind of pathetic and afraid of taboo

[ chorus intro ]
that melody
it reminds me of those days of sunshine you spent with me

that memory
it's taunting me.

. . . .

[ instrumental ]

[ verse ]
i can't stand to remember
because every time i do
it's like i'm sent to the past and
i'm reminded i'm a fool

all the chances i missed and
the pain that i kept
inside my chest
inside my chest

i can't stand to remember

because i was just a kid
and i'm sent back to that time
where i only ran and hid

i'd like to say i'm better now
but i'm still running from it
i'm still packing it
inside my chest.

. . . .

[ chorus ]
that melody
i'd like to write a new one together
we've spent many days
in turbulance, or at least that's what i thought

in silence, i tried to turn over a new leaf but
it was no good
so tomorrow i'd like to forget those days
and be honest with you

that memory
i'd like it to continue into today
all we have to do
is to speak our minds

but it's a lot harder than it seems
even back then, i knew that happiness was just a dream
that these moments we spent would come to an end
if only i had the courage to ask you to start them again
. . . .

[ verse ]
i don't want to forget
because if i did
that would be throwing away
my own sense of self

after all, i'm someone
who has a big ego
that's what i think
that's what i said, yeah

i can't stand to be shrugged off
so make a big deal of me
every time you turned your eyes away
the dream ceased to exist

and yet i still look back at that
time of sunlight
and i say
"wow, that was the best"

. . . .

[ bridge ]
it seems that we aren't really
that much different now.
as much as i think we've been torn apart,
i don't think you've even noticed.

no matter what i do, i think
we'll always be together
probably because i'm always afraid
and treading on eggshells

why is it that i'm so afraid
to say something as simple as "let's hang out?"
probably because every time i did before
it got torn apart

[ chorus ]
that melody
it reminds me of those days of sunshine you spent with me
that memory
it's playing in sepia on repeat

why is it that the things we want to forget
are the ones we just can't?
it's obvious;
because those memories are the ones that are the most important

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