"IT WOULD BE NICE IF I HAD AN OBSESSIVE STAN SOMEDAY"

DESCRIPTION: what an awful, grabbing-onto-straws start of a month, huh? this one has a few tuyu homages but those are just references, they are not actually really important, it's just something with a similar theme. of obsession.

[verse]
i don't want your approval in particular, but
it would be nice to have one person devoted to me
just a single one, but it's infinitely more than
the zero i have, starting from scratch

i don't want anyone in particular, really
it would just be nice if someone understood
tethered to my side, those standards are too high
but i still wish for someone to laugh alongside

and yet, there is nobody else that i would do that for
what a hypocrite, i say, lying through gritted teeth
as i realise what i've been looking for all along
she's distant and out of reach

[prechorus]
we criticise it
we insult it
we tear it into shreds

we applaud them
we praise them
for saying something so mundane

and yet we're still not allowed to truly say it;
our true love brewing inside is disguised
as hatred, as we become obsessed with tearing others down instead

[chorus]
by hiding your true love, you
hide your all meaning too
you'd rather water it down because it makes a balanced diet
and so the glass begins to overflow

not everybody wants to eat well;
because the dieticians are lying to you
so you disguise your love as hatred and become obsessed too
the anti-war pacifist fights rabidly on the opposing side

[verse]
i don't care about you anymore
i just thought it would be nice to be together
but perhaps you just thought my laughter was
too annoying to bear. so you left

or perhaps you were never there in the first place,
i tried to become famous to fill up the holes in the pavement
and yet there are no flowers to be seen
there's just more ugly weeds between my heartstrings

[prechorus]
we criticise it
we insult it
we pretend it's not there

we applaud them
and we praise them
and become "normal" by denying the truth

the truth that you are just as bad as them

[bridge]
ah, it's always too much or not enough
i'll throw away this false dichotomy war
"moumoku," "shinja," it's all made up
to placate an empty crowd of husks

maybe instead of fighting those who aren't okay
we should show them a better way
but there isn't one; so all you do is say it's bad
back turned to the explosions you've incited

[chorus]
by hiding your true love, you
spin up lies of hate
you don't understand that all rage is
just loving from a different place

not everybody wants to eat well;
because some people can't afford good food and such
so why must you fight us in these
pointless wars of what defines "loving too much?"

[outro]
i turn the computer back on
once again giving into the realm of of addiction
because if i can't stop there for being more victims then
i'll at least ensure the casualties are on your side instead.