"Mirage Loop"

DESCRIPTION: I want you to be saved, but by me. Because if it's not by me, then............... idk this is getting concerning, my posessive-ness

ah i thought it was real
but it was just another illusion
a mirage, conjured by a stranded animal
lost in the sands of the human race

it wasn't real, it was just
a lie i told myself to pass the time
and yet somehow, deep down i'm still
hoping that it was true

i'm somehow still hoping i mean something to you

why is that i'm filled with such bubbling jealousy?
why am i filled with burning rage?
i don't understand these feelings, so i'll put them into words
and throw them down the drain (another scrap of paper)

ah, i thought it was real
but it was just another dream
a mirage, that i keep remembering
playing that memory on repeat